The kind of woman I forgot to be

For some reason latelyI have forgoten to be a true woman - to look and behave like one. Doing my driving licence course I haven't even tried to look nice - no skirt, no untied hair, no heels. No way. Getting on a car felt like preparing for a battle - a battle on the road - with men coursing and doing unkind things (of course not all men are that way).
Other than that, nothing in the world today reminds me of trying to be a true woman. It's more popular to be an aggressive, vulgar and seducive woman than to be virtuous, kind, loving and sensitive. Women don't treasure their roles as mothers. Staying at home as a mother is usually considered boring. It's hard to be this kind of precious woman in such a world. It takes confidence and even courage.
It's not just the look that makes women - women. There are women who are beautiful, clever and talented but they lack these attributes of true womanhood. Or they don't find it necessary to develop them.
However, homes and families need true women. The husband and children are watching. They look for example. If a mother and a wife allows herself to course, raise her voice (I'm not perfect at that one), then everyone else at home feels allowed to do it. Cause if the woman/the example can, that means it's allowed.
My husband loves it when I have a flower in my hair, when I wear a skirt. He loves it when I have a cheerful attitude, he's always around me then. This is why we got married - because we are different, because we are a man and a woman. He loves it when I'm not afraid to be different from him.
And finally when I react meekly and kindly, but not silently, to his stresses of the day or emotions caused by mistakes, then I pass the final exam. He always recognizes this. After the tension is gone, he would show me extra love and have children love and respect me more.
Somehow after five years of marriage, we became so much alike, that I guess we forgot to be that different - the reason why we fell in love with each other.
After all, the fruits of the Spirit are the attributes God want us all to posess: "love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith, meekness, temperance [...]"(Galatians 5:22).